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I forgot about LJ [22 Jun 2010|01:29pm]
Is anyone out there? Can anybody hear me! ha-ha!
catch me if u can

Thoughts [16 Jan 2007|10:21am]
[ mood | happy ]

Its funny how things you have suppressed so deep inside you just pop up out of the blue. I find myself repeatedly pouring gallons and gallons of water on something for the hopes it will sink only to find it float all the better. What is it that would actually make it sink? Could it sink? Would it sink? What if it did sink? Would it still be there someone on the bottom? Would it finally just disincarnate? My body and mind become numb and exhausted. maybe a pill to make me forget just those moments, maybe a shrink to help un numb me, maybe a long drawn out conversation is what is needed. Or maybe- just maybe you find that one person to keep you sane. Although its in its nature to float, you can lean and look into the eyes of that special someone that makes life better than you even imagined it to be. Maybe it is not possible to forget the unwanted, but maybe it is possible to remember that the unwanted is not so bad when the wanted is there to hold the object below water. I find sometimes in life there are those that take life for granted, there are those that find entertainment in others sorrows, there are those that hide behind walls and put smiles on their faces, or maybe we are all just the same.

catch me if u can

[30 Oct 2006|04:18pm]
It's been a long time, all I know is I love my job, I love my life, and I LOVEEEE ASH!
catch me if u can

Vacation [25 Aug 2006|02:35pm]
[ mood | loved ]

I will be leaving for the Carribean this weekend, I do not know if my phone will work so if I don't answer or get back to you, I will try to contact you when I get home. :)

I love you all!!!!

VACATION with my Honey!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Woot Woot!!Over & out!

catch me if u can

[21 Jul 2006|10:25am]
[ mood | loved ]

Take my hand and lead the way;
tell me all you want to say.
Whisper softly in my ear,
all those things I want to hear.
Kiss my lips and touch my skin;
bring out passions deep within.
Pull me close and hold me near;
take away my pain and fear.
In the darkness of the night,
be my beacon, shine your light.
In the brightness of the sun,
show me that you are the one.
Give me wings so I can fly;
for I can soar when you're nearby.
Enter my heart, break down the wall,
it's time for me to watch it fall.
I've been a prisoner, can't you see?
Break my chains and set me free.
Strip me of my armor tight;
you'll find I won't put up a fight.
Release my soul held deep within . . .
I'm ready now, let love begin.

catch me if u can

[11 Jul 2006|09:16am]
[ mood | happy ]

She is my world..I love her with all my heart

catch me if u can

[07 Mar 2006|09:10am]
What a beautiful day! Woohoo! A high of 43deg..Wow...hahaha! Well I'm thinking of going to the club Friday night...If u want details ask me! Jess U gotta come if we go! It's almost time to get our boards and head down to the Oaks! Hahaha...Gay Pride is close also! WOOHOO!!!!!!!!!

I miss everyone! MWACH!
catch me if u can

Love this song..... [13 Feb 2006|12:57pm]
[ mood | crampitightis ]

2 AM and she calls me 'cause I'm still awake,
"Can you help me unravel my latest mistake?,
I don't love him. Winter just wasn't my season"
Yeah we walk through the doors, so accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to criticize,
Hypocrites. You're all here for the very same reason

'Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button, girl.
So cradle your head in your hands
And breathe... just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe

In May he turn 21 on the base at Fort Bliss
"Just a Day", he said down to the flask in his fist,
"Ain't been sober, since maybe October of last year."
Here in town you can tell he's been down for a while,
But, my God, it's so beautiful when the boy smiles,
Wanna hold him. Maybe I'll just sing about it.

Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table.
No one can find the rewind button, boys,
So cradle your head in your hands,
And breathe... just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe

There's a light at each end of this tunnel,
You shout 'cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
And these mistakes you've made, you'll just make them again
If you only try turning around.

2 AM and I'm still awake, writing a song
If I get it all down on paper, it's no longer inside of me,
Threatening the life it belongs to
And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud
And I know that you'll use them, however you want to

But you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand.
and breathe, just breathe
woah breathe, just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe.

catch me if u can

sHE........ [27 Jan 2006|08:55am]
[ mood | cheerful ]

SHEE is simply A*M*A*Z*I*N*G!!!!!!!!

catch me if u can

[12 Jan 2006|02:18pm]
Blessid Union Of Souls
Let Me Be The One

So you're scared to show your feelings
Baby I do understand
Well I don't make a promise I can't keep
And I vow to be a real good friend

In those big green eyes I see a glow of love
I just hope I'm the one you're dreaming of

Let me be the one to love you
Let me be the one to care
Let me be the one to light your flame
Oh baby Oh baby
Let me be the one

We spend all our time together
We can't stand to sleep alone
When you say you have to leave for now
I miss you before you're gone

All along we thought this was absurd (absurd)
Every moment we spend goes by too fast
Darling Darling take this chance with me
Cause I have eyes only for you
Oh baby

Let me be the one to love you
Let me be the one to care
Let me be the one to light your flame
Oh baby Oh baby
Let me be the one
Let me be the one to love you
Let me be the one to care
Let me be the one to light your flame
Oh baby Oh baby
Let me be the one
For you

Don't be scared to show your feelings
Cause baby I do understand
And I don't make promises that I can't keep
And I vow to be a real good woman
catch me if u can

............ [22 Dec 2005|01:00pm]
[ mood | creative ]


so delicate,
One thing we're all amiss,
a gift, so wonderful, everyone's only wish,
to have someone, who's there to hold, the greatest thing is this,
in all throughout the heavens, love longs a faithful kiss,
However, a dream, that most people rarely see,
this world, forever, apart perfect harmony,
of things that last, in waves that crash, the greatest thing to be,
is one who lives to give and care, a love so perfectly,
In this book, the hands of God, the gift we've all been given,
unto those who open up and love this life we live in,
a rhythm, of care, is the greatest fortitude,
then know you are forever loved, the perfect gift in you...

catch me if u can

Obsessed with these songs lately.......... [12 Dec 2005|02:06pm]
[ mood | artistic ]

"Bad Day"

Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day

(Oh.. Holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

"Better Days"

And you ask me what I want this year
And I try to make this kind and clear
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days
Cuz I don't need boxes wrapped in strings
And desire and love and empty things
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days

So take these words
And sing out loud
Cuz everyone is forgiven now
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again

And it's someplace simple where we could live
And something only you can give
And thats faith and trust and peace while we're alive
And the one poor child that saved this world
And there's 10 million more who probably could
If we all just stopped and said a prayer for them

So take these words
And sing out loud
Cuz everyone is forgiven now
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again

I wish everyone was loved tonight
And somehow stop this endless fight
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days

So take these words
And sing out loud
Cuz everyone is forgiven now
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again

catch me if u can

[27 Oct 2005|08:24am]
[ mood | sleepy ]


There are moments in life when you miss someone
so much that you just want to pick them from
your dreams and hug them for real!
When the door of happiness closes, another opens;
but often times we look so long at the
closed door that we don't see the one,
which has been opened for us
Don't go for looks; they can deceive.
Don't go for wealth; even that fades away.
Go for someone who makes you smile,
because it takes only a smile to
make a dark day seem bright.
Find the one that makes your heart smile.
Dream what you want to dream;
go where you want to go;
be what you want to be,
because you have only one life
and one chance to do all the things
you want to do.
The happiest of people don't necessarily
have the best of everything;
they just make the most of
everything that comes along their way.
The brightest future! will always
be based on a forgotten past;
you can't go forward in life until
you let go of your past failures and heartaches.
When you were born, you were crying
and everyone around you was smiling.
Live your life so at the end,
you're the one who is smiling and everyone
around you is crying.

catch me if u can

Rainbow Light!! HAHAHA!!!!!!! [26 Oct 2005|08:42am]
[ mood | content ]

So..Yesturday was very intertaining! Haha..First I go home and relax in the tub for about 15 minutes, than my grams has me doing 85,000 things-lol! I was suppose to be at Ashleys at 7, but got there at 7:45 and I HATE being late! Shar and Christina and I all drove out there, we were going to go to a haunted house and Ashleys friends to watch some movies but my cousin and Christina desided they wanted to drink so I had to stop and get Shar some C.Morgans and Christina had smirnoff left over at Ashleys from the last time we were there. I didn't want to drink and had to drive far to get home but I ended up having 1 beer cause we played "never have I ever" but a lil different! It was fun!
Of course Shar and Christina love asking embarasing questions......heha!!!! Could have killed them! LOL Boothie was suppose to come over and i missed her but she never called us back :( she may have fallin asleep?! hmm.............................i dk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Well after that Shar, Christina and I wanted to watch that 2 day movie on Lifetime called human trafficing, which of course was very sad!!! There were a bunch of people at Ash's, her sister and all her friends and I was trying to talk Shar into hooking up with one of the 16yr old boys! hahaha But instead shar says "OMG-ash your mom is HOTTTTTT" and Christina agrees while beer almost came out of my nose. I had told Ash
the first time I met her mom that she was very pretty! hehe Shes really nice! Her dads pretty cool also!
But anyways it was good fun! Oh yea Shar ate like 5 pieces of pizzza or somthing!!!! HAHAHAHA It was pretty entertaining watching her stuff it all in! lol

So...today i'm attempting to dye my hair BLONDE again!!!!!!!! Suppose to go to Comos but its way to cold out! Might go to a haunted house or somthing!!!
Or a movie night?! Or go cry cause my hair dont turn out-but im hoping that dont happen! LOL

Well I've only been at work 4 an hour and it seems like it should be lunch time!!!!!!!! :( The sun is out! WOOHOO!

Peace out hommies!

Tuesday Grams get heart surgery!!!!!! :*( I'm hoping this helps!!!!

catch me if u can

Tegan and Sara! [25 Oct 2005|03:49pm]
I hear Tegan & Sara may be coming again in January?! HMMMM Went to the Oct 6th concert!!!!!!!!!! SOOOO GOOOOD!!!!!!!!! I was right infront of Tegan! It was soooo good!!!!!! But SOOO hotttt and crowded!!!!!!!!!!!! But Beck was right when she said they are good at performing but they dont really talk much and yada yada! blahHH!!! hehehe
catch me if u can

UGH!!!!!!!!!!! [25 Oct 2005|10:20am]
[ mood | upset ]

OMG!!!!!!!!! Yesturday was prob. one of the WORST days of my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! EVERYTHING was going wrong! 1st..EVERY 1 was cranky, so naturally that put me in a bad mood! 2nd...Shan and I were NOT getting along...3rd...Shar attempted to put BROWN highlights in my hair and it came out GREY!.4th I tried to fix it and it did NOT work! 5th...My dad calls my lil sis to tell ME my dog needs to be out of the house by FRIDAY! This is because my dog dont like new people and my aunt came over and teased the dog and the dog almost bit her so now my aunt says my dog needs to find a new home or else she will come over when I am at work and take it to the pound. Horrible!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So now im in a delema-the only place the dog can go is to Shannons-and she has another big MEAN dog that will prob. swallow Zoey !!!!!!! UGH!HH!!! Zoeys my cuddle partner and she lays in the bathroom every morning when I am getting ready for work!!!!! :*( I can't do this, I NEEEED to move out!!!! Looking at apt.'s today!!!!!! and 6th...........to top it all off-Shar and Shan got in to a fight last night and now they are NOT talking! That bites the dust!!!!!!

Need to fix my hair!!!!!!!!!!!!! HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!

How is it possible that when something bad happens-its only the beginning of a long miserable weeeeek!!!!!!!!!!

OMG-someone PLEASE say somthing funny!!!!!!!!!!!

catch me if u can

TEN-EASY!!!!!! [24 Oct 2005|02:53pm]
[ mood | sick ]

Wow-I haven't updated my journal in a long time...Oppsss!! haha I read everyone elses on my free time and than run out of time to write in mine.... haha! Well hmm...I had a nice week off of work lat week and went to Tennessee to see my mom for her birthday. That was fun -except i got sick the day before and didn't feel totally with it the whole time and now im sitting here at work and feel like poop shit! Almost called in to work today!!!!! yuck!
It sicks to be sick! But Tennessee was nice, I just love the atmosphere there, its beautiful-My cousin assures me its very boring to live there but its a very pretty state. The mountains/sky/stars/air/trees/flowers! All of it is just gorgeous! I was thinking about moving there and working for Saturn but I could't leave my grams ans good things may be looking up with certain things. Soo...i'm unsure. I was feeling like there was nothing here for me for a while, I love my job but its a job! U know?! I dont know, only time will tell and right now my heart is telling me to stay here in Michigan. I really don't even know what there is in TN for me anyway? Family yea, but I haven't been close to them since I was 16. So, I dont know-Myabe i like to think if i move 10 hours away all the hurt here may dissapear...but in reality I know it wont! So...I dont know. Move out soon? Maybe thats the next step I need, maybe thats all I need? I feel guilty though-I don't want to leave my grams ans shes sick..so i'll wait it out and look after her until i feel the time is right...? I mean thats all i can do really! Wait! I seem to always be waiting.....hmm...something will come of it one day..I don't mind waiting for my grams, she is a big part of me and shes helped me get to where I am today.

I need to get all my school papers in -LIKE NOW!!!!
Nerve racking!

On a better note-I brought Shar home with me!!!!!!!!!!! Shes here for holloween!!!!W OOHOO that our holiday-we always do somthing crazy! She wants to go tricker treating-hmmm I just might! LOL
I dont know-haven't did that in years! LOL Maybe if I get crunk and than put a sheet over my head and be a ghost! haha! It could happen! LOL
But this is going to be a good week-even though Im sicker than a dog-my best friend is here and that makes it better! Although she bashed my shows last night!!!!!!!!!! D.Houeswives and Greys A. Punk sleep and than woke up wide awake and I was ready for bed so Everyone went out and i went to bed. Like 2 in the morning i get a call from IKA cause I GUESS Shar, Shannon and Christina were pranking her or somthing-I don't know I was half asleep!!!!??? Havn't talked to them yet! interesting! LOL Weirdos! They prob. didn't realize Jess has school in the morn! PUNKS! Well today I am suppose to go tanning with Shar and chill with my sis. We shall c!!! 2 hours of work left and I have lots to do!

Well I miss everyone so much!!!!!!! Call me we have to find some time to chill!!

Jess-when u find some time between school and work call me, i wanna go skating or running in royal oak or somthing?! I miss u!

Hope the weather isn't kicking your ass Beck!! Be safe!

Later hommies! Love ya all!!!!!!!!!

No time for spell check-just deal with it !!! HAHA

I AM MY OWN RAINBOW!!!!!!!! But Amanda is the purple in my sky....What do you want to be?!!!

catch me if u can

[28 Sep 2005|03:18pm]
[ mood | crappy ]


[Spoken Marques]

Don't say a word
Just come over here
I got somethin' I gotta do tonight

[Verse One]

Ain't never been a man wantin' anything much as I want you (you)
The sun don't come up til' mornin' so tonight theres no excuse...mmm (mmm)
Just like the rain outside I'll make your love come down so baby now it's time (time)
Just can't wait no more (just can't wait no more)
I'm gon' give you what your body's been cryin' for (cryin' for)

[PreChorus One]

And if you tell me yes I'll lay you down
Girl we ain't gotta rush let's play around
We'll do it like we never done before so go and lock that door
Baby don't worry cus I'll be gentle


Come on baby turn the lights off let's get naked (ooh come on)
Come on babygirl you know I just can't take it (I can't take it no more)
Let your panties hit the floor (floor)
Let your body steal the show right now (right now)
It seems like you're ready
So come on girl I just can't wait to see us naked (us naked yea)

[Verse Two]

I know you want this girl I see it in your eyes (eyes)
Don't be ashamed of what you got between those thighs oh (oh)
You know I'm gon' try not to be so excited
But I can't help it feels so good to be invited
So baby get ready cus here I go ooh (here I go ooh)

[PreChorus Two]

Take off your shoes I wanna see them toes
Slip off that skirt and that shirt gotta go
Come off them draws girl you won't be needin' those
Now you're wearin' what I like baby let's go
Come on


Come on baby turn the lights off let's get naked (Let's get naked) ooh come on
Come on babygirl you know I just can't take it (I can't take it no more)
Let your panties hit the floor (floor)
Let your body steal the show right now (right now)
It seems like you're ready
So come on girl I just can't wait to see us naked (us naked yea)

[Verse Three]

Now somethin' 'bout that sexy skin you in
Your clothes don't do you justice so come out of them
So baby take that off so I can break you off
And give you love love love (uh huh oh)
Now its time to enjoy yourself
If you need assistance babygirl I'm here to help
Cus its time for us to start this love makin' (let's make love)
But first we gotta get butt naked

[Spoken Marques]

Damn girl
You look so good
Won't you come over here
Slip off that skirt
You know that shirt gotta go
baby baby baby
You lookin' kinna right
Take your time (take your time)
Now you know its time
Lets get naked

If you tell me yes I'll lay you down
We'll do it like you never done before
If you tell me yes I'll lay you down

Told Dar I would post it! hahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

catch me if u can

P.M.S!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOL [06 Sep 2005|12:49pm]
[ mood | CRAMP-Y! ]

UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm at work and just got my damn P! My cramps are taking over my world!!!!!
Sooo...Wow-It looks like I have a LOT of catching up to do, but don't have the time at this moment.
Hmm...Just got home from Tennessee-that was amazing. The state is beautiful! Went 4wheeling on my moms 50achres, shot her new 9MM-haha bitches-I was the only one out of 7 of us to hit the can!!!!! HAHA!!!! Hmm..built a huge bomb fire and my head got burnt-lol! Hmm.. It was just a nice trip-the stars at night are amazing! Saw a shooting star with my cousin-made a wish-we shall see if it comes true!
soooo..my next goal besides school- i'm getting a house with my friends!

Hmm.... well i'll probe. be living in TN when I retire cause I inherit the land, and the house, barn and all the animals, so I guess thats somthing to look forward to!

well lets see-JESS- Tegan & sara!!!!!!!!!! For sure! Count me in! Wouldn't miss that shit!!!!!!

*New York soon!
*Back to Tennessee in Mid-Octpber-for moms b-day
*Tennesse in November -mom getting married!
*Vegas for the New year!

Ererrrr Worst cramps EVER!!!!!!!! Gotta get back to work! MISSED U ALL AND LOVE U ALL!

catch me if u can

Dont even talk! [03 Aug 2005|12:34pm]
[ mood | cold ]

1. Reply with your name and I will write something random about you.
2. I will then tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I will pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in (or for the PG-13, eat with you).
4. I will say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I will tell you my first memory of you.
6. I will tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll then ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. Put this in your journal.

catch me if u can

Party Hard!!!!!!!! [02 Aug 2005|12:49pm]
[ mood | calm ]

What a weekend...Friday night was a blast-well everything I can remember anyway! I remember being online and than taking the bottle to my face! lol..After that I remeber drawing pictures on sherry and Jessica. I dont remember who all was drawing on me but my stomach and knees were full of writing and pictures! LOL I dont remeber this but I guess Shannon and Matt had to carry me inside cause I was rolling in the grass by the fire?! I have no clue! Have brusies though! lol I can recall walking to the park with Stacy and Angalina, Jeff, Mike, Stacy, Christina and Shar were there, but I don't remeber how I got there or back to Christinas! Hmm.. I know I made sure I was the FIRST to say Happy Birthday to Stacy in 4 languages!
soo...WHAT A NIGHT!!!!!! Cant say ive EVER in my life been that drunk!!!!!!!!! Kinda scary cause I hardly remember anything!!! No I know what people r talkign about when they say that! lol.......damn!!!!!!!!!! HAHA oh -Jess I remeber u feesing my frys and pita bread! Good thing-I woul dhave thrown up !!!!!
Tx!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Well woke up the next morning-after going to bed after 5am and had to take Jess to work at 9:30! Had no idea how u did that!!!!!! DAMN!

Well I was NOT able to go to Stiletto's Sat night because I found out what the worst hang over in the workd felt like!
A hang over that lasted until Sunday night!!!!!!!Horrible!

Jess-I don't want you to worry about anything, I know things are different right now but i'm not going anywhere! We grew up together, you've been there for all the good and all the bad and vise versa. And will continue to be! Shakira baby!!! hehe...Don't worry okay!!! Love ya!!!!!!

So...Wednesday-Well It's about damn time!!!!! Christina is going to meet this girl she thinks may be her soul mate?!
Como's should be fun! 5th ave. is suppose to have this cool local band and I shoul dbe going there that night with my cousins! We shall see! haha! Im gonna wear my plaid shorts with my pimp ass pink shirt! LOL U know im sporting the plaid Jess!!!!!!!! LOL Nice shorts!!!!!!!!!!

So..Saturday I'm taking the family out to dinner to Frankenmuth! This will cost a fortune but I love them and they are worth it, I should do it while I can! Granny sick and i'm going to make what time she has left the greatest!!!!
Thats the only thing i can do!

I'm out! Hanging out with Shar after work!!!Peace everyone!!!!!

catch me if u can

"Do I Look GAY"? [29 Jul 2005|01:18pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

Another day-So yesturday I got off work went to the Aspen and had a beer with everyone from work, left there around 5, went home and when I got there Gram's was sitting on the couch sweating ready to pass out, she was having a hard time breathing and I started freaknig out but than she told me she was already at the hospitial and it's becuase of her valve to her heart. They say unitl she desides to get the surgery and thake that risk than shes going to have the breathing problem. So, she was a reck, and that made me so sad, didn't knwo what to do so i left and went to pick up Jess. We went to the mall to see Stacy and while I was talking to Stacy Jess took off and was gone for a while , so I called her and she told me to coem into A. eagle so when I got in there she has these cute pink,blue,tan plaid shorts that were mens and said"do u like them" and "does this shirt match"?i said hell yes hold on, walked over got a pair for myself and headed to the fitting room! HAHA IT was to funny! "jock my style"?!!!!!! So than I saw the paints that I've wanted forever since I saw them on Becky so I tried those on! They have like paint and whole in them , they look worn! So cute!!!! So I made Jess try some on also and we ended up buying the same shit! It was to funny!
Well than we left there and headed to Royal Oak cause I had called my cousin Eric earlier that day and he just moved there on Washington behind Prontos, so we met up with him and chilled for like 3 hours! It was sweet!

Today! Going out for Stacy birthday!!! Royal Oak, Jess, Stacy and myself! Shoul dbe a blast! Than to Christinas for a PARTY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Crunk tonight!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I NEED TOOOO!!!!!!!!!

Dar-Good luck with your surgery, you are in my prayers!!!!!!!!!Love ya!Party Saturday!!!!

Becky-I hope your having a good summer, I miss ya woman!!!!! Camels!!!! HEHE!


catch me if u can

Shop, shop and shop............. [28 Jul 2005|01:07pm]
[ mood | blah ]

Well the day started out weird yesturday-I was at working and than out of no where Shannon calls me at like 2:30 and asks me to exchang her cars unitl I get off of work and than come over. I'm like what-WHY? She said no questions, well I was like umm okay?! Well when I got to her house and went to get into my car it was spotless, hahaha!!!!!!! Why is she being so nice now? HMmmmmm.........
It was really cool though cause It needed to be done like sooooooooooo baddd!!!!!!!!!! So, I took her to Bahamia Breeze for dinner since she spent like 3 hours cleanign my car! LOL We ate sooooo much food! $50.00 later we were going to call someone to come get us! LOL That was cool cause we havrn't been getting along at all latley!
Well than I went shoping for like 4hrs!!!!!!!! Got the new Tegan & sara CD"-So jelous"! It's so sweet!
Well than my stomach started killing me again and I went home to go to bed, had lots on my mind even though I was about to die so I took Zoey(my dog)for a walk. The sky was alllll stars! So beautiful!
Than went home and crashed!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Today will be a blast!!!!!! Going out for drinks after work with everyone and than meeting up with Jess to be silly! LOL

Peace everyone! Hope your having a good day!

catch me if u can

"Hush ya mout" [27 Jul 2005|04:20pm]
[ mood | busy ]

Well yesturday was alot of fun!!! Went over Shannon's to get her ass out of bed-lol, Called Jess to ask her id she wanted to do dinner-she said Yes, than called Christina to have her meet us , than called Susie and she was with Shar(cousin) and Tikk so went and picked up Jess and all 7 of us met up at Pizza Hut! The WORST service EVER!!!!!! But anywhay we went down memory lane and that was hilarious!!!!!!!!!!!!
Talked about Tennesse and now we all can't wait!!!!! Christina is so going to get blown out! LOL
Well than we went back to Christinas to play some b-ball, Jess left to go hang with Amber but than got a ride to Christinas cause she didn't want to hang with her anymore! LOL Well we ended up going up to Meijer cause Matt made me an AWESOME cd!!!!!!!! Jason Mraz Live!!!!!!!!! UHHH SOOO GOOD!!!!!!!!!! And anyways Christina and Shannon were fucking going nuts! They were soooooo hyper, so Jess and I left them! LOL I can not even begin to explain how krazy they were acting!!!!!!!!!! LOL Jess and I had to run from them! LOL Well tonight I think I might go to Frankenmuth -I dunno! I'm tired though so I may take a nap!?

Jess-what we doing tommorrow? Running in Royal Oak? Hmm...I'll be ready about 5! On Thursdays I go out with everyone from work for a drink across the street! HEHE!! LOVE YA!!!!!!!!

Peace out Hommies!!!!!!!!!!!

catch me if u can

Just another day........... [26 Jul 2005|10:52am]
[ mood | blah ]

Soo..Don't have much to write about today! Yesturday got off of work and met Susie at Dave's to pick up a Cd player for my car! That was cool, visited with the block and saw Eric! Left there to go to Christina's to go swiming. Christina was still hung over-to hilarious! We all swam and Mamma Wancket made us dinner-well Christina almost hurled smelling the food so I was chasing her with food in my mouth! HAHA!!!!! So , Susie and I left to go get Shannon cigeretts adn when we got back Shannon had my CD player almost in! That was sweet! It's so nice to have a CD player again-I've missed it since I sold my last car in like 2001!!! Than after we all ate, Susie, Christina and I went tanning! NOW MY ASSSS IS SO BURNT!!!!!!! Than when we got back to christinas all 4 of us went to DQ and had dessert! Than I didn't fell good so I went home early to go to bed! Woke up at like 3:30am wide awake though!!!! That sucked!!!!

So..today is the big day for Christina!! She meets Sara in Royal Oak today-Of course I am soooo going! LOL My couins Eric and his gf just moved there so might give him a call! Well finally we got some dates for shit-Kings Island is Aug. 12-14 and Tennesse is Sept, 2-5th! Woohoo! Going to have a blast! Good summer so far-which is sweet! Beeen hanging out with the people I really care about in life so it's sweet ass! LOL

Jess-I can try to call Ann(joeys mom) but if i would have known before they went on sale I could have got w/in the first 5 rows, but i'll do what i can! How many u need? I might go-dunno yet! I need your debit card when I call also!

I'm thinking of buying some season tickets for Pistons!? Don't know yet! :)Not the same w/out Larry Brown!

Today i tried Wasabe nuts from Mexico, and before lunch im going to eat a grass hopper! DON'T ask!! Franc talked me into it, but Matt has to do it with me!!!!!! LOL I'll let u know how it is!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well Im outta here hommies! Going to Macaroni Grill for lunch with Dar! Chicken marsala BABY!
Stacy-Yea hopefully we can watch the L-word on Friday and go to BD'S in Royal Oak! Well have fun! And than we could go up to Jessicas work and pick on her! LOL THANK YOU SO MUCH-for calling me during TEGAN & Sara that was so awesome!!!!! Thanks woman!!!!!! CHIC-A-GO----Would u like a Chic-to-go? Yes-PLEASE! LOL I'll take 2!

catch me if u can

"Omg-How many Fries can U eat at once"??? [25 Jul 2005|12:36pm]
[ mood | anxious ]

Okay well didn't have much of a weekend, Friday was sleeping by 9 and didn't wake up until 10 the next morning! Went shoping on Sat and got myself 2 new blazers. Well the one I got from Express I had to order cause they NEVER have my damn size! The other one is from Lord and Taylors and it's really nice, has pink pin stripe in it. Well went home and ATTEMPTED to take a nap when my father came over and woke me up to help move a huge TV! That was horrible! Well Sat. night we were suppose to go to Stiletto's but thats a story you woul dhave ask me about! Lets just say the night sucked unitl we got to Coney and Christina was so trashed it was hilarious! She was singing into her fork!!! I'm sorry again Dar!!!!! Love ya bia!!! I DO!!!!!!!!

Sunday, I worked my ass off at Meijer! Than the rest of the night was fun! Went and hung out at Jessicas work for over an hour unitl she got off, and than hung at her house for like 30 minutes! OMG!!! JESS!!! I swear-The girl eats like 10 fries at once! LOL HAHA!!! That was to funny woman! Well when Jess and I got to Christinas we got ready to go swiming and Christina was ALREADY drunk!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Like always!!!!! LOL Well I had to do it I dared Christina along with everyone else to jump in with her cloths on and she hardly made it over the top! LOL!!! Jess-those coffee beans were ughhhh!!!!! I can not believe Shannon sat there and ate those! LOL Well the night consisted of Christina, Shannon, Suzie, Tik, Crystal, Heather, Amanda, Lisa, Joe, Jessica, and myself. Although I think I'm leaving out some people but I probe. didn't know their names! Omg! Tik picked me up over his shoulders and thre me in and about killed me, my back smacked against that water so hard!!!! Well I left around 1 and took Ika home and today I get a call from Shannon that everyone passed out at Christinas and Christina had been getting sick for over 5 hours and had to call into work!!!!!! OMG WOMAN!!!! Learn when o stop drinkning!!!! LOL !! Poor Sara! LOL I pity the woman that has to take care of your drunk ass! It's about time someone else takes car of you, it's been all me for 6 years! LOL So Friday night Christina and I are throwing a huge ass party at her house!!!!! Ika-be ready to swimmm-naked! JK! lol !!!!! I'm working on a tattoo design still for Jess, Suz and myself! it will be done soon!!!!!! Got any ideas?

Soo...Today is suppose to be the hottest day of the year! Going after work to get my Cd player-need to put it in though myself-this should be a project! LOL Than I am off to Christinas to swim! Christina will probe. be huffing her toilet still! LOL Poor girl!!!!!!!!!!!!! Well I am going to finish my sub from Subway and get back to work! Have to design a new limit switch for the stow n go seating for Lear! See-ya hommies!!!!!!!!!

catch me if u can

"COFFEE BEANS" -Would you like those TO GO?!!!! [22 Jul 2005|12:47pm]
[ mood | frustrated ]

Can U say "COFFEE BEANS"?!!!!! LoL! Well yestuday was nuts! Didn't enjoy the talk with Shannon, she says things that just make my skin curl! Anyways-to the good stuff! Well Shannon, Christina, Suz, Mark(tik), Jess, Lisa and I all went swiming-of course running and jumping into the pool! And I beat Tik in b-ball!!!!!! HAHAHA!!!!!!! Thought he had me!!!!! Good bet Suz! LOL Well Shannon had been drinkning since 7:30 and Christina since 10, so by midnight them two decided they had to go to Coney! Well when we got there the two drunk girls (Shannon and Christina) sat on one side while Jess and I watched them stuff their faces with food hanging out! HAHA! Christina put a fry in her bear and I dared her to take a fork and eat it and than drink the rest of her beer! And she did! LOL Jess keep handing her frys that were gross and on the table and she continued to eat them while we were in shock! LOL Jess and I keep stealing their frys and they would try to like eat our hands! Damn drunk girls! LOL Christina about riped my hand off and than ate the fry she tore from my hand! LOL Jess and I were laughing so hard we could hardly open our eyes! Well by the time we left there it was around 1am and they were still so tanked! A cop followed us to Christinas but i parked the car and jumped my ass out! Than Jess hid in my car and I told her the cop took her, and she believed it! LOL Well we went to Meijer to get some grocerys for Shannons granms and there I dared Shannon to eat fresh coffee beans, SHE DID IT!!!!!!!!!!!! We were walking thru Meijer with Shannon snacking on "COFFEE BEANS" She liked them?!!! Jess and I were laughing! Jess went and got her more when we were walking out! She ate them until I droped Jess off at about 2am!!!!!!!! lol.... We were in tears!!!!!! OMG!!!!! Jess you still buying her a bag of them tonight?lol!!!!!!!!!!!! Well that was it, droped Shannon off and went home!!!!! Didn't sleep well!!!!!!!! Going to bed by 9 tonight!!!!! HELL YEA!!!!!!!!

Love all ya'll!!!!!!!!! NO time for spell Check!!!!!!!!

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Who let the "CAMELS" out?!!!!! WHOOOWHOOO!!!!!!! [17 Jun 2005|02:38pm]
[ mood | bored ]

If i'd a-known the way that this would end
If i'd a-read the last page first
If i'd a-had the strength to walk away
If i'd a-known how this would hurt

I would've loved you anyway
I'd do it all the same
Not a second i would change
Not a touch that i would trade
Had i known my heart would break
I'd a-loved you anyway

It's bittersweet to look back now
At mem'ries withered on the vine
But just to hold you close to me
For a moment in time

I would've loved you anyway
I'd do it all the same
Not a second i would change
Not a touch that i would trade
Had i known my heart would break
I'd a-loved you anyway

And even if i'd seen it coming
You'd still've seen me running
Straight into your arms

I would've loved you anyway
I'd do it all the same
Not a second i would change
Not a touch that i would trade
Had i known my heart would break
I would've loved you anyway

I would've loved you anyway.......

Had to put this song on here-I love it, isn't it soo damn cute?!

catch me if u can

Mend A Broken Heart... [16 Jun 2005|12:45pm]
[ mood | crushed ]

Soo..... I really don't hae much to write today-my mind is bouning from thought to thought! Make sence? O-well! So.. Went to the dentist yesturday after leaving work around 11am with tears in my eyes and my hands shaking. It's a good thing Shannon answered her phone and came and got me cause there was no way I could drive. Franc from work was going to have to take me. Sooo.. my stomach hurt so bad and I had no idea why?! Well my wisdom tooth came in wrong and pushed my other tooth from the roots and it got infected-it became absest and was giving off poisons. Soo...that was great news-anyway the dentist and 2 other people gathered around me holding my mouth open while they gave me 3 different shots! I about died!!!! One to make me sleepy, one for the poison and one to numb it! It hurt like a bitchhhh!!!!!!!! Lots of tears! Needless to say he took the tooth out so fast and my jaw was locked! What a fricken time I had!!!!!!! So..now i'm sitting here at work with my pain killers and my 40! haha -Wish I had a 40! To ghetto! lol

So my grandma is sick! She has conjestive heart failure, the same thing I have and will always have-but hers is wayyyy worse than mine is. They had gave her 2 years and now they don't think she will make it the 2 years.

Life latly has realy sucked.. Some people I thought would always be there when I needed them have left--What did I do?! I don't get it and I'm losing sleep over it! Maybe thats just how things are suppose to be. I don't want to agree with the situations and what things have been said but do I have a choice?!

Soo..with all these things going on-u better believe theres more, for instance my sister moving to Tennessee in 2 weeks. My "father"- ok I must call him 2 times a week to make sure he is well and alive. Does he remember me ever calling?! NO!!!!!!! Y?????? Cause he takes too many drugs!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So he leave me messages that say"how come u dont call me" "I need money" "I need for you to love me" crying!!!! WHat the heck do I do? He knows I love him, but hes always so fucked up that he can't remeber my name at times!

I know theres those of you that care about me and want me to let it all out and talk to them and I just can't-I don't know whats wrong with me, all these feelings are stuck and I dont know how to express them to anyone but myself.

Soo..I dont know what else to do-I know running from this heart ach wont help any, but I'l leaving Michigan for a while. Going to lay on the ocean-figure things out, get my head back again(if thats possible)Does anyone know how to make a heart stop hurting and breaking? HELP ME!? So maybe a week maybe 2 weeks and ill come back home from wherever I go. Paris?! I have dreams of going there! One day with one very special person...hehe

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WORST F*ING WEEK EVER!!!!!!!!!!! [15 Jun 2005|11:12am]
Worst week ever! Granys heart is worse than it was the last time she had theropy. Went to take her to doctors to have her heart stoped last night and re-started to mak eher heart rate more normal and they basicaly said " If she does this theres not a good chance she will make it thru" ! So ...Bad night!! horrible night!!!! Now i am leaving work to go get a wisdom tooth pulled! I can't talk, eat, laugh-anything! So this should be some treat!!!!!
catch me if u can

Birthday BASH! [13 Jun 2005|12:08pm]
[ mood | cranky ]

Well where to start!!......

OKay I knoe-The Alanis M. Concert! OMG!!!!!!!! It was sooo GREATTT!!!! Jason Mraz sang some Elton John songs and I about screaming my head off! LOL.. Alanis looked so damn beautiful and she just gets so into her songs that I almost cried!!! SHe was sooo cute!!!! I just wanted to squeeze her! lol

Okay-hmm... Friday night! The Rainbow Room-Shannons first experience at a gay bar(even though she was there a whole hour)-lol! She was really quiet and I dont think she liked me dancing that way I do! LOL It was funny because wMy friends and I were sitting there when she came in and I've became friends with the people that actually work there. So when I was calling them by there names she just gave me this look like WTF! lol And than we were all talking and sitting at a table by the bathroom when this girl comes over put her hand on my shoulder and says" theres a girl that would like me to ask you to meet her in the bathroom" hahah!!!! SHANNONS FACE WAS PRICELESS!!!! I was like ohh I'm sorry! Than Christinas like OMG!!! Shes hotttt-so me being a smart ass drunk that I was decided to go dance next to her on the dance floor by myself.. WEll my drunk ass fell into her and Shannon about screamed! She was going to go punch the girl!! DOES THAT MAKE SENSE? LOL!!!?! OH And I beat Christinas ass in pooL!!!! HELL YEAS!

Saturday-Well I woke up in a pissed off mood! Had bad dreams and I STARTED MY "P"!!!!!! GOD HATES ME I SWEAR!!!! LOL Sooo....So i woke up and wanted to go shoping at Lakeside. There were these cute ass pants from Hollister that I wanted and nope they did NOT have my size!! We get back to Christinas and i open the door and theres Lisa and Joe with a cake with funny ass looking candles!!! It was so cute-they all sang to me!! That was the best!! LOL!!! FUNNy as hell though! Cause they werent done putting the candles on the cake so all u hear is Joe screaming wheres my pants! HAHA I Was like oh hell no!!! LOL ********Lets get to the point where we are on on way to Stiletos! Okay well I drove because Shar, Christina and Shannon all wanted to get drunk before we left! Oksay that was cool-I'm a cheap drunk so i told Shannon to drink at home first! Soo..were on our way already late becuase we were playing bball and everyone needed to clean up and shower. We leave Christinas at 11! So we get like 3/4 of the way there and we have to get off cause everyones got to pee(the drunks that is) lol and we cant get back on 94 because it was blocked off, we get back on going East and get off and have the same problem yet again! So we took back roads! OMG!! so horrible, got there like 2 minutes before 12! I walked in went to the bar to cool myself down and just watched the shows for a while-smoking!!!!! lol
After I cooled down a bit-Shar and my song came on "don't u wish your girlfriend was hot like me" lol..And we got into the cages and went from there! We met these 2 drags up there and became friends with tham and later that night went to Denny's with them and like 20 other people! Sooo much fun!!!!!!!!!! lol Shannon kissed a drag! SHE WAS SO EXCITED!!!! LOL Well anyways the night was going and Shar, Krystal, Kortney and I were all ontop of the cages with our hands at the top and our feet against the half way pool! WE GOT YELLED AT! lol!!!!! So than the DJ says girls take your cloths off!! So, Shar looks at me and sayd "true cousin" i was like ohhh hell yea! So we danced without our tops for like 2 or 3 songs! Just our bras! That was something i have NEVER did, but i was like fuck it-who cares?! It was sooo much fun! Shannon was like go on what r u waiting for?! I was in s hock! She actualy danced the ENTIRE time, so awesome! Thank god I was drunk by that point! lol !! Denny's was fun!!! LOL!!! Talked to the girl -Linda that hosts the dances at Stilettos and decided that Shar and I would be performing there! LOL Yea! thast going to be a treat! i'll have to drink lots! lol!Thank you to everyone that made that night soooooooo much fun!!!!!!!! I really had a great time!!!!!! LOVE U ALL!!!!!!! Much thanks to Dar because I know you started your "P" to and u weren't well! TY IT MEANS ALOT BIA!!!!!!

Sunday-hmm Woke up at like 2! Called Jess to come swim with me adn ended up falling asleep with cramps!!!! WOW! Went swiming around 7! But yea! The PISTONS GAME!!!!!!!! OMG!!! We looked like a high school team! That was bullshit! After that I was so disgusted that I feel asleep like 3 minutes after dreaming about it! LOL HORRIBLE!!!!!!!!

Today I am once again going swiming! Love the water!!! Suppose to go out to eat with grandma though-so who knows? I want to shop for cloths for Myrtle Beach!!!! 10 days!!!!!!! Road trip!!!

catch me if u can

The SKY is the LIMIT!!!!!!! [08 Jun 2005|12:14pm]
[ mood | anxious ]

Well...Another day! Hmm...Im eating some weird tasting pizza at work-I hope its not old and my body decides to throw it up! YUCK! lol So yea...awww Jess your graduation was cute! Thats so funny that I was screaming and you had no choice but to walk across the stage laughing your ass off! HAHA!! IKA!!!! IKA!!!! OMG EVERYONE was staring at me! Even Shar! lol Way toooo funny! Saw a lot of my old teachers -that was pretty sweet! lol Mrs. Starr was like you still work at Meijer, I was like huh? oh hell no I am an Engineer! her jaw hit the floor! LOL Saw Mrs.Z-kenweed! She went on and on about how I had Spanish with her for 3 years and how much different I look! She told me I should be a model! HAHA I was like yea ok! lol Other than graduation I sayed away from the sun while Christinas mom made us all dinner! lol.. Shar was to funny eating all those noodles! lol I wanted to eat so much but I just couldn't -I need to find the appitite I use to have! lol!!! So tonight is the concert! Woohoo! Well im going to get drunk and Party hard!!!!! I'm really excited now! I just found out that Jason Mraz will be there-he is the fucking greatest! Well nest to Steve Poltz!!! LOL What the hell-why not?! lol Thursday I think we are all hanging out at the beach?! Who knows?

I Have to say im a little pissed and irritated with Shannon! She would not come to Pride, she sat home texting me that she was so bored and lonely. But wouldn't come to Pride?! Whats the deal? She dont like seeing weird shit? Whats that mean? Your with a girl so what the hecks the problem? Than, My b-day were going to gay bars..She has to tell everyone including Christinas mom that she dont want to go I am draging her there..DONT GO?! im not forcing the girl to go. It just dont make sence to me? What is she ashamed of or scared of? I don't know maybe some people just arn't comfortable expressing theirselves in that way?! I say Who gives a fuck! You only live once- who do we have to impress? NO ONE!!! errrr Im just a little upset about this obviously. We were sitting there last night with Christinas mom and Shar was with me and I got so fed up with the whole situation so I said I'll see you later and left!Eerrr ..When I try to talk to her she just gives me that look. I'm done talking about it! PERIOD! I'm going to have fun this weekend and thats that! YUPPERS!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well I am designing a seat at work today so I better hope to it, I h ave to go measure the seats in my boss's van! YIPPIE!!! lol

NO SPELL CHECK!!!!!!!!!! lol BIA!!!!!!!!

P.S! DARLENAS GAY!!!!!!! But she won't admit it! HAHA JK!!!!!!

catch me if u can

What kind of world do we live in.......?! [07 Jun 2005|12:30pm]
[ mood | exhausted ]

TODAY SUCKS!!!! Well I got NOOooooo sleep-My burn has went from bad to HORRIBLE! Had lots on my mind last night so I may have got likt a great 2 hours?! Who knows!!!!!! Than I get a call that my Lil' bro that I grew up with and babysat got malested by some 17 year old punk that moved into my grandmas house!!!!!!!! I swear its taken everything I have to sit here and not leave work and go bust his head into a wall! I can only imagine how he feels! NO ONE is suppose to know about the situation yet but when one person finds out gossip on Kaufman street the whole world will know about it! EEERRR.... I feel sick to my stomach!!!! What the hell is wrong with people?!!?!! Serisouly?! Can someone tell me?!

Sometimes I wonder-If it weren't for bad luck-Would I have any luck at all??! Maybe that would be better?!

No time for spell check!!!!! LOL SORRY AGAIN!
It's been seven hours and fifteen days
Since you took your love away
I go out every night and sleep all day
Since you took your love away
Since you been gone I can do whatever I want
I can see whomever I choose
I can eat my dinner in a fancy restaurant
But nothing
I said nothing can take away these blues
`Cause nothing compares
Nothing compares to you

It's been so lonely without you here
Like a bird without a song
Nothing can stop these lonely tears from falling
Tell me baby where did I go wrong
I could put my arms around every girl I see
But they'd only remind me of you
I went to the doctor n'guess what he told me
Guess what he told me
He said girl u better try to have fun
No matter what you'll do
But he's a fool
`Cause nothing compares
Nothing compares to you

all the flowers that you planted, mama
In the back yard
All died when you went away
I know that living with you baby was sometimes hard
But I'm willing to give it another try
Nothing compares
Nothing compares to you
Nothing compares
Nothing compares to you
Nothing compares
Nothing compares to you
The first time I laid my eyes on you I knew. We’d spend this life side by side. I still feel the same though you’re so far away. I swear that you’ll always be my... Forever love. I promise you. Someday we’ll be together. Forever love. I won’t give up. no matter what. I’ll be waiting for you. forever love. Minutes and hours and years may go by. But my heart knows nothing of time. So don’t cry, just keep me right there. In your dreams. and hold on to these words of mine. Love is the road to our destiny. Nothing can change what is meant to be.

catch me if u can

Beer-y Fun Weekend!!!!!!!! [06 Jun 2005|12:21pm]
[ mood | artistic ]

Let me start out by saying this is one of the BEST WEEKENDS!!!!!!!!! Rainbow Room on Friday was tooooo much fun! It was a night filled with laughs. I needed that! !Josh was to funny ! The boy can dance! lol Darlena was so funny-pulling me away from those girls! HAHA!!!! Christina let lose for once and that was sweet as hell! lol By the end of the night I couldn't see straight-I'm drawing some blanks!!!lol

Saturday played bball after doing house work outside!Almost had a heart attack! Than later on that night hung out in Royal Oak with my Christina, Shar and Kyle. That was fun-although Shar did maybe one dare that I dared her, I did all mine!!! Well almost! lol! That was horrible!

Sunday-PRIDE!!!!!!!!! That was sweet as hell! Meet a bunch of new people and ran into some chics from the rainbow room that I didn't quit remember! lol THE ONE CHRISTINA AGUILERA looking chic from the rainbow room that Christina was about to hump was there, she told me she would be but I didn't think I would run into her. It was cool we talked for a while but the girl has like 3 girlfriends and than some. lol..Poor Christina! lol But had fun! Saw lots of my friends there, some that I NEVER knew were gay back in high school! That was sweet as hell but I was shocked as fuck! lol Christina and Shar just arn't gay enough! lol i don't know?!lol-At least they would come-Couldn't get Shannon to come there for anything! LOL Shes weird!We sure did have fun Jess-didn't we?!!! LOL LOVA YA BIA!!!!!!!

Sunday night I tried to take a shower after PRIDE! Nope tooo sun burnt!!!! OOOOOWWWW!!!! Im sitting here at work with my aloe bottle just about in tears-trying not to move any certain way! LOL Had to sleep with just underwear in last night-didn't get much sleep though!!! ERRR !!!Well I guess tonight im going to the gibralter fair?! i think! I dont want to be in the sun though! PISTONS BETTER WIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thats all I have to say about that shit!

Tuesday I have Jessicas high school graduation and Wednesday I have a concert- Atlantis Morset. I don't even think I spelt her name right! lol I dunno! So..This weekend should be fun again-bar on Friday and on Saturday! woohooo!!!! 23! I feel like im 50! lol haha jk!

Well I've had a lot on my mind lately and I think I need to take a vacation-so thats what I am doing! WOOHOO!!! got the time off of work and going to West Virginia! For sure! woohoo!!! Thats sweet-I'll probably write a lot down there and wonder off by myself with all these things in my head and maybe figure out how to handle them all. Who knows?!

Well I am back to work!!!!!!!

**BECKY- It was awesome seeing ya at PRIDE-Felt like I haven't seen u in forever! We always have fun-even if were just walking! Love ya!** Take Care!


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"JUST A LIL BIT" [03 Jun 2005|12:37pm]
[ mood | QUIET ]

I just wrote almost 2 pages and lost it! The computer froze! That's BS!!!! ERRRR!!!!! Like my day couldn't get worse!!! sO, THIS ISN'T GOING TO BE AS GOOD AS MY LAST ENTRY THAT NEVER MADE IT TO BE SAVED! BUT OHHHHhhhh well....

Another second, another minute,another day and another week. Quiet today-My mind has all these feelings and thoughtS that just keep coliding into my heart. Haven't had a good nights sleep in months. Wonder when I will?! Or if I will?! Hmmmm.. Somedays I feel more alive than others but lately I've felt asleep and dead to the world. But I live my life and go on on with my day.

So...June 14th....Gradma will be going into the hospital to have her heart stoped than brought back, I have a bad feeling about that, it just dont sound like something anyone should be doing!But what can I do?! My mom/sis/cousin will be moving to Tennesse the first week in July. Dont get me wrong Im so very happy that rocco(step father) will be out of my sight but now I will be going to Tennesse probe. once a month or so. I can not wait unitl he gets whats coming his way! I live to see that day!

One a better note-Im going out tonight-going dancing-getting drunk!That should be fun, ill make it fun! PRIDE is sunday-that should be fun! Maybe I'll run into Becky and we can have a beer and talk a bit, cause I havent seen her in a while! Ill probe be drunk hugging everyone but its okay cause the girls will be gay so i dont have to worry! RIGHT? lol


catch me if u can

[31 May 2005|01:29pm]
[ mood | angry ]

What a day-WHAT A WEEKEND! Well at least Sunday night was a blast! Lova ya IKA! Thank god I have you to talk to whenever I need to. Anyways!!!! How did u like those mad skills putting that tent up drunk?! LOL almost feel in it but it turned out! lol Can't wait till your grad party!!!HAHA!!!! U'll be missing from it for a while! In my car getting drunk-your grandmas going to kill me! lol WEST VIRGINIA is only a month away-not even! I need this time away-we will have fun! White water rafting baby! OMG! maybe Christina will fall out again!!! LOL!!! Hopefully you dont hit your head this time! We need to make a "Beckly Witch 2" haha!!!!!!! RAINBOW FRIZZ!!!! I still have those pants! Second weekend in July-U and me! TENNESSEE/TEXAS! We will have a blast! Always do! Im so going to bring my dads Lexus! haha! well i need to go, hard day and i needed to feel happy writing this down for a bit.


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"Poor some Sugar on me" [24 May 2005|01:24pm]
[ mood | artistic ]

"Tides of Romance"

Walk with me in the sand,
Stay close- so I can hold your hand,

Sit upon a chair together,
Show our love for one another,

Gaze out upon the water,
Listen to the beautiful sound of the waves clatter,

Wishing the moment to last forever,
For once not even think about the weather,

Rain or shine I’ll call you mine,
This love I have for you is purely divine.


You've reached into my soul,
With you I feel so whole,
Crash into me,
Come closer-lean upon your knees,
Make me cum-oh pretty please,
Slide your tongue into me-please don’t tease,

Your hands grasped tightly against my hips,
Explore my world - a total eclipse,
Now lean forward-kiss me on my lips,
Be prepared for what will drip,

My knees begin to shake,
How much more can I take,
Oh sweet heart I’m going to break,

Your love has secluded my heart,
Lost when we are apart,
So completely you fill my heart.

catch me if u can

........ [17 May 2005|03:00pm]
I feel like I've been blown apart
There are pieces here
I don't know where they go
I don't know where they go
Kiss me on my salty lips
I bet you feel a little crazy but for me
We'll be famous on t.v.
Would it be my fault if I could turn you on?
Would I be so bad if I could turn you on?
When I kiss your mouth I want to taste it
Turn you upside down, don't want to waste it
I jump on you, you jump on me
You push me out and even though you know
I love you I'd be inclined to slap you in the mouth
When I kiss your salty lips
You will feel a little crazy, but for me
I'll be famous on t.v.
Now, will it be my fault if
I take your love and throw it wide?
You might restrain me,
But could you really blame me?
And you will feel you're blown apart
All the pieces there will fit to make you whole
And I know where they go
catch me if u can

[21 Apr 2005|12:33pm]
[ mood | silly ]

Pondering thoughts, missing you with evey ounce of my body, lonely!

catch me if u can

Crys..... [30 Mar 2005|10:04am]
[ mood | crushed ]

Through happy and sad,
Beside you I stand,
Let your toes lose in the sand,
Don’t hide your feelings-take my hand,
I’ll hold you above land,
Until you are ready to stand,

Through all your fears,
Ill be the one that cares,
With pain and tears,
I will be here through the years.

catch me if u can

[29 Mar 2005|03:00pm]
[ mood | curious ]

Weeping willows,
Blossomed flowers,
Heavenly sky,
Polished sunshine,
Marshmallow clouds,
Love gazed upon the air,
Silent thoughts floating upon dreams,
Hope lying on fields of grass,
My life lies upon the earth’s cravats,
Day by day, hour by hour,
Will I fall or will I Fly....?

catch me if u can

A Song........ [29 Mar 2005|12:13pm]
[ mood | awake ]

Look at the sky, tell me what do you see
Just close your eyes and describe it to me
The Heaven's are sparkling with starlight tonight
That's what I see through your eyesI see the Heaven's each time that you smile
I hear your heartbeat just go on for miles
And suddenly I know my life is worthwhile
That's what I see through your eyes
Here in the night, I see the sunHere in the dark, our two hearts are one
It's out of our hands, we can't stop what we have begun
And love just took me by surprise
Looking through your eyes.I look at myself, instead I see eyes
Whoever I am, now it feels like enough
And I see a girl who is learning to trust
That's who I see through your eyes
Here in the night, I see the sun
Here in the dark, our two hearts are one
It's out of our hands, we can't stop what we have begun
And love just took me by surprise
Looking through your eyes.And there are some things we don't know
Sometimes a heart just needs to grow
And there is so much of us I remember
Underneath the open sky, with you forever
Here in the night, I see the sun
Here in the dark, our two hearts are one
It's out of our hands, we can't stop what we have begun
And love just took me by surprise
Looking through your eyes.
Looking through your eyes.

catch me if u can

Wanting......... [29 Mar 2005|10:59am]
[ mood | awake ]

Restless uncertainties,
Concentrated posture,
Tremendous infatuation,
Stunning romance,
Irresistible kiss,
Composed thoughts,
Passionate dreams,
Beautiful heart,
Extreme bliss,
Touch of heaven,
Trusting hand,
Undying memories.

catch me if u can

Voided..... [28 Mar 2005|12:47pm]
[ mood | dorky ]

Soft lips lay upon my neck,
This is making me a wreck,
Your fingertips glide down my body,
Finally I see love-My heart is no longer cloudy,
Want to scream out loud that I love you,
Want to take that step with you-"I Do",
I wish you knew the way I feel,
Cause than you would never have to question if my love was real.

catch me if u can

Thoughts.............. [28 Mar 2005|12:04pm]
[ mood | naughty ]

Silent Tears,
Concurred Fears,

Breathless Moments,
Beautiful Romance,

Overwhelming Passion,
I am Crashing,

Lips of Gold,
I am Sold.

catch me if u can

You make my life complete!! [21 Mar 2005|12:19pm]
[ mood | flirty ]

Love is real
It is not just in novels or the movies
It is fact
And it is standing here right in front of you
So if you open your eyes
Oh what a sweet discovery
There is hope, and there is joy, and there is
So now let all of the light that collects on your
Keep you warm, make you smile
And I will be there with this pen in my hand
To record all the while
You'll be laughing so loud
That the house would shake with sound
And everything will be as new as the day it was found
Love is real
It is not just in long distance commercials
Or something that you thought you felt back in high
So I will turn black and white
Become that horoscope you're reading
It predicts something good is on its way
Oh, and then I will send you the world green and blue
In a box through the mail
You can open it up, hold it right in your hand
And be glad that it's there
And be glad that you're there
Now, you can feel all the knots in your stomach start
to untie
And suddenly it's not so hard to say you're all right
Love is real
It is not just in poetry and stories
It is truth, and it will follow you
Everywhere you go from now on
So if you'd just cast off your doubt
Then your lips would answer for you
Oh my darling, when you smile, it is like a song
Life without you is not life at all.

catch me if u can

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